Been back for a bit and getting on the road again

I’ve been back in Beijing for two weeks and I haven't written anything down. Mostly because I’ve been busy with random things…but deep inside, I’m not sure how to summarize or write up this past month I spent in the village.

Words cannot really describe my feelings. I miss the students at the school, my team and all the wonderful people I got to know. To say the least, the one month in Henan was the best month I’ve had since college graduation. I don’t think I’ve ever been that happy.

The library we built turned out to be a huge success. However, as we got to know the students more and visited their homes, we realized there’s really not much we can do to change their lives…except for showing them more love (which is quite useless when it comes to helping them with their lives). We (my team) felt helpless as we discussed the issues related to rural education over and over again. The kids still text me and call me almost everyday but now I have a really hard time finding things to say to them...I'm such a bad big sister.

I haven’t done much in Beijing these two weeks. Just getting facials, spas, seeing shows and hanging out with friends (yeah, so lame)…I don't like the city life but it took me no time to get back used to it. Thinking about the kids makes me feel so guilty. I’ll have to write a detailed blog on my experience in Henan once I settle down in Taipei and have more time to concentrate on things. I’ve been sick since my last couple of days in Henan and still haven’t recovered. People have been telling me it’s fatal to go to Tibet when I cough like this…I guess we’ll see :/

Off to Tibet I go tomorrow. My dream is finally coming true :)

P.S. Sorry if I haven’t responded to some of your emails. Things have been kinda crazy and I promise I will get back to you when I get back.